Terror in the Cave

 Hello! God

It's me again, Kimberly

But I'm sure you already know that

It'd been long since we last met

I guess that's because I charged you with Ma's death

I still feel bitter about that because I prayed

Why didn't You answer?

Anyway since then I've plunged myself into drugs

Alcohol has been my only best friend

now I feel nothing less than wet pieces of rugs

when pastor Eugene invited me to church service

I refused but I knew You are the only one who can help me

but if I did that it will mean Your exoneration from Ma's death

I will need Your  help with that too

Forgive me Father for I have sinned

It'd been a billion years since my last confession

all those times I was busily building my body count

and by every addition, I offered up a piece of myself

undeniably, I enjoyed every moment of it.

You are aware how my innocence was taken early

I feel trapped with no point of escape

I want Your help

I want to retain myself,

being better doesn't seem like a bad idea

God, I have come before you again

remember me? Linda!

I was here yesterday in the morning

and later in the day things ended up in moaning

coupled with the intense stirring from the porn I've stuffed

under my pillow, phone and on my cloud storage

my soul is messed up with all these perverted fantasies 

that buries my mind deeply in dopamine all the time

and now I'm utterly worn out from the excessive masturbation

God I'm terrified! 

not just from being exposed but that I may never

be able to recover from all of this

Help me, recover myself  to be whole again

at least like I once was before all of this nightmare. 

Hi! God

It's me Manuel

I heard you don't discriminate

But I'm in doubt but nonetheless I'm here now

I've been doing drugs from childhood till now

My family and I became rich through this

Along the way, I destroyed some people's livelihood 

and I also offered my services to hell by sending some there

I know I'm a monster but is there any hope for me?

Is there any chance that a demon may become an angel?

I will take my chances even if I have to rebuild everything.

Dear, Lord

It happened again!

At service I felt this intense lust towards that young lady

looking at all these I don't think I am ready

the greediness and envy that got me thinking of

how to con them into giving me their money

am I truly called of You

I'm in despair of the state of my heart

when is this all going to end?

is it peace or anointing that I need?

Please help me or I might as well quit it all.