The Christian with Porn

I am a holy tongues speaking christian with lust
Holy roller in this body of dust
Started at 06, My buddy showed me a magazine of nude women.
My mind was flooded with dopamine
How could something bad give this much ecstasy.
Now I had a grounds to fulfill my fantasy.


From then on, I moved from a secret admirer to an evangelist of porn
Converting my friends with videos from dusk to dawn
I became a watchman, yes! a watchman of porn.


I felt guilt and shame
But I wasn't about to let go of this filth and fame
I saw myself in this world of lust
So I began to cruise with an open mast
Until the light of Christ touched my heart
I gave it all up and had a fresh start.
I received both prayers and deliverance
Once in a while, when depression finds me
I find my way back into the hall of lust.


Yes I am a Christian, but I can't talk about the plague of porn
Once I open up, my image shall be torn.
And the pain of being stigmatized will cause my heart to fold
So as now I do as I'm told
And suffer silently until I am old.
I have prayed, I have fasted and now i am tired
Where is the help that will make me feel desired
I did not know that after prayers my mind was mine to train
To alleviate the sexual strain.
For responsibility is the impulse of of grace .
Prayer washed me from within by the blood
And awakened my sense of responsibility in God.
My mind was mine to guard by His Word 
To defend it from outside critters by His Sword
Alas ignorance is but darkness 
For the chains only remain
because i source some validation
from this thing called porn.


Eldean

The Christian with Porn The Christian with Porn Reviewed by El Roi on May 28, 2021 Rating: 5

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